I love to read. I like the idea of reading. There are plenty of books I would enjoy to sit with and get lost in. The problem is that reading takes energy out of me.
After a long day I would love to read and relax, except for that I would rather relax and lose my mind in a tv show. I know that some people don’t like to read, but I would love to.
I wonder what would make it be able to be effortless for me to read. People will tell me that if I read more, it will get better.
My question is when. When does it get easier. Will reading ever be able to be my way to relax and unwind after a long day or will I always turn to Netflix.
There are plenty of books that catch my eye but opening them is what scares me. I have always had trouble reading.
When I was in third grade, I had to miss communal class and go to a particular class to help me read. I don’t remember what we did in there, but I remember walking back into the classroom and them being halfway through their math lesson.
I believe this is part of the reason I am not a fan of reading. My underlying fear when I open a book is that I am missing something more important.
I deal with irrational fears all the time. I can not pinpoint their origin, but they are present.